Posts Tagged ‘spirit’

IF…

// September 9th, 2009 // No Comments » // My Thoughts

If you struggle with sin,
if you are selfish,
if you are an alcoholic,
if you are addicted to drugs,
if you are addicted to pornography,
if you don’t spend enough time with your wife and kids,
If you are a jerk
If your dad was/is a jerk,
If you were/are abused,
If you were/are neglected,
if you constantly need the approval of others,
if you are habitually whiney,
if you nag your husband,
if your spouse is cheating,
if your child hates you,
if you hate anybody,
if you just did it again and you feel horrible about it,
if you don’t know why you do the things you do,
if you feel hopeless,
if you feel insane,
if you feel like jumping,
if you already jumped,
if you just left and are never going back,
if they broke your heart,
if they broke your spirit,
if you are broke,
if you are bent,
if you are angry,
if you are afraid,
if you don’t care anymore,
if you care but are afraid to show it,
if you are confused,
if all you want is to be touched,
if it all fell apart today,
if they did it again and you just can’t forgive,
if you don’t want to go on,
if you don’t feel anything anymore,
if none of this fits you, or if all of it fits you

Please know that God truly does love you more than anything else in this world.  He isn’t concerned about how well you keep it together, or if you did the right thing.
he is not interested in how often you go to church, or if you said your prayers yesterday.

He just wants you to know he loves you… he really doesn’t need you to do anything…he has everything he needs,  he just wants to love you…  just focus on loving him back with all your heart.   stop focusing on trying to please others or doing the right thing, or being right, or even keeping it all together… let it all fall apart!    all those other things,  they are just distractions,  just love him back… and let me know how much it changes your life…

Seriously let me know…  at  jasonthebaldguy@gmail.com

Tags: Art, dad, doing the right thing, drugs, God, Kids, Love, porn, pornography, sin, spirit, spouse

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Everyone’s Entitled… Or Are They?

// August 8th, 2009 // 1 Comment » // My Thoughts

I have to say that I just about fell out of my chair laughing when I read the “Onion” article that stated “Study: 38 Percent Of People Not Actually Entitled To Their Opinion“   But It really got me thinking… I am a pretty opinionated person, so how many of my opinions are actually not mine?  Well truthfully I rarely just pick up an opinion and begin using it for my own… most often the reason for this is that I am a bit egotistical i guess…I like figuring things out on my own. I seek out truth at all costs… the result, I may actually be entitled to my opinions… not that they are great or even very accurate but in most circumstances my opinions are mine and mine alone.  However this is not so true for the average person I rub shoulders with… Call me an egotist if you like, but I rarely meet individuals that actually think for themselves these days… in general they seem to just jump on somebody’s band wagon and hang on for the ride.   Most commonly I find people regurgitating the opinions of  talk radio hosts, activists, TV personalities,  and they often are intensely confrontational and outspoken and feel very strongly about “their” opinions.   Like the staunch conservatives that are protesting the health care reform, they talk about “socialized medicine” and “single payer plans”.  And yet have no problems  avoiding a co-pay  for immunizations by going to a county health clinic to get them for free… something wrong there… right?   So where are you in this?   do you just quote Rush Limbaugh or some other outspoken personality that has whipped you into a furor about a certain subject?   You have to know that politics these days depend on the gullible public to believe in the hype surrounding an ideology and rarely provide accurate facts. This forces people to make decisions based on “feelings” rather than on “facts”  so if everyone “feels good” about a war… then we can be at war for 20 years and no one will complain… but alas if some soldiers die, well then people start feeling bad about things… so they no longer want to be at war.

I am not trying to be insensitive here… I just think that a lot of people need to begin pulling their head out of the sand and realize that the majority of the US population is manipulated spiritually, religiously, psychologically, and physically through fear, and misinformation. It is an old trick that if you want to advance an agenda then you need to get people upset about something else.  Once they are focused on your distraction then they rarely recognize that something else more sinister is going on… It is called “diversion”   So the next time that someone gets you all worked up about something… you need to think about what might actually be going on in the background.

Just take a moment and be honest with yourself… are you really entitled to your opinion?  or are you just borrowing someone else’s

Tags: activists, Art, choices, conservative, decisions, egotist, fear, hype, My Thoughts, Obama, politics, President, reform, Religion, rush limbaugh, sin, single payer, sleepwalking, spirit, talk radio hosts, truth

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Insanity… The Pendulum Swings

// August 6th, 2009 // No Comments » // My Confessions, My Life, My Music

There seems to be an unspoken rule somewhere that if you are a musician then you will buy and sell more gear than you could use in several lifetimes. I

Pro Synthesizers are a beautifull thing

Pro Synthesizers are a beautifull thing

cannot tell you how many times I have sworn not to sell or trade another single piece of gear but along comes something and the gear is gone and other gear takes its place eventually. The sad thing is that you always miss your old gear because you realize how great it was when you had it. But you sold it and it always costs more to buy it again than you sold it for. Over the last few years I accumulated quite a bit of music gear, and I really loved it. I had a bad year… the church that I was helping plant was failing despite our every effort, my autistic son Aidan started getting into my stuff and breaking it… or coming really close to breaking it badly. So I moved all of my gear to the basement thinking I could set up a studio there… I was really happy and spent a lot of time setting everything up just right. Once everything was in place I flipped the switch and started making sweet… loud music in my basement! 5 minutes later there is a knock at the door, the next door neighbor had called the landlord and complained (I live in a duplex) so I was pretty miffed to say the least.. it was the middle of the day on Saturday! There is not much better time to be loud right? Well apparently my neighbor works at night so day time is off limits. I was a little unhappy to say the least… So I tried again later at night when she should be working… again the manager is called… apparently two people live there and one is always sleeping so there is no conceivable time ever that I could play music and really jam it out…

(Now maybe you understand and maybe you don’t but to a musician there is a universe of difference in hearing the music (headphones) and feeling the music (Loud Amplifiers!!!) A musician lives or dies based on how they hear what they are playing. If you can hear and feel what you are playing then there is a synergy of passion and sound and it actually stimulates creativity and your music becomes something very alive and wonderful)

Apparently and unfortunately, my neighbor is intent on denying me even the hope that I can really Jam Out EVER! So I sat in my basement looking at all of my gear… thinking about how often the keyboards had quarters put in them by Aidan, and thinking about all the times someone has told me to turn my music down… even as an adult in my own house! and I got really mad… and really frustrated and really tired of trying to do the thing I love doing and having someone else put limits on me for their personal happiness! what about my personal happiness! So about 6 months ago I sold everything…

At this moment I am regretting that decision as I sit here completely strapped for cash and unable to buy any gear… I know it sounds completely materialistic.. but this is the real me… once you have played on a really good instrument anything else seems just not any fun at all. so grabbing a $100 dollar keyboard is not going to cut it… I have my eye on a used Yamaha Motif XS6 but my “eye” is about the only thing that will get close to it… as tossing $1800 dollars at music gear is at the top of my “things to not do if you want to remain married or alive” list.

Was I insane? YES! I sold perfectly good music equipment because I was frustrated… and as the pendulum swings back and my former insanity is realized… the money is gone… and I sit here just wanting to play a synthesizer like a beastly madman… I am Insanely trying to figure out how many times i need to go to the plasma bank to get that Motif .

Funny thing… one day I can be so focused on spiritual things… the next day I can’t beat my way out of a paper bag… Insanity… The Pendulum Swings…

Tags: Art, Fun, Love, music, musician, My Music, sin, spirit

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Rights

// June 2nd, 2009 // 1 Comment » // My Thoughts

The Idea of even having “rights” is a fabrication of ideas based on ownership and selfishness. In Christ we are neither slave, free, man, woman. this is bigger than rights! it involves realizing that you are actually a spiritual being that is free of these silly constraints and learning to exist in whatever state you find yourself in. Our faith becomes our reality, our hope becomes our future and our love becomes our identity. None of these things are anchored to the temporal world we live in. Ultimately we who are in the image of GOD become even more like GOD by embracing his very nature.

Giving up your rights is most definitely an exercise in semantics. Only when we free ourselves from the silly logical constructs of “perceived reality” we realize that rights can’t be given or taken truly! we always have choice, granted the choices that we perceive may change but regardless of anyone’s perception of “rights” everyone still maintains the ability to choose. To push this concept even further faith even allows us to make choices that are impossible based on “perception”

Tags: choice, choices, exercise, Faith, God, Love, perception, selfishness, semantics, spirit, spiritual being, temporal world

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It Is NOT SAFE!!

// May 5th, 2009 // 2 Comments » // My God, My Life, My Thoughts

Don’t let somone tell you it is! It is NOT SAFE!!! So many Christians wander around this world thinking that for some reason if they serve God that everything will be ok! They blindly walk with a fake smile on their face screaming through their teeth “WHY IS THIS NOT WORKING?!!” Of all the dissillusioned people I meet the christians that are still holding on to these philosophies are the hardest to reach. It’s as if they beleive that they only need to try harder, to be more serious, to act more holy and then they will find peace. And so many of them say… in the midst of their pain … “The safest place for me to be is in the center of the will of God”  as if there is some secret bubble of safety that we are all trying to maintain balance within.  What a load of garbage!  This is the kinds of garbage that gets prolipherated when people decide to develop religions and systems of doctrine instead of just following Jesus!  Jesus was never safe! and if there was anyone that could “hold the bubble” it would be him!

The Truth is

  1. IT IS NOT SAFE
  2. The will of God is bigger than you think
  3. God is more concerned with souls than he is with your safety

It is not safe

Within the will of God, Jesus Suffered, and every one of his disciples suffered, Martyrs were killed for being in the will of God… just in case you haven’t heard your life is in danger!  Serving God is not just some silly fad that you can claim ownership by wearing a bracelet! It requires risk and pain and heartache, Jesus said “I come not to bring peace but a sword” Matthew 10:34-39  He is not saying that we should bear arms against each other but that we must defy anything that would ask us to reject him. So get the idea that your life is going to be all tulips and daisies out of  your head… your destiny awaits you!

The will of God is bigger than you think.

This is where you need to stretch your mind a little.

imagine the first choice you ever made…  draw a point there.   imagine the last choice you make… and draw a point there..  if you were to list every possible choice in between those two points then the sum would equal your life.  and somewhere in all of those branching lines would be the path that you took… To a God that can see every possibility and every choice, don’t you think he would have a plan in place for even your worst possible choices?  so at what point could you actually make a choice that was outside of God’s will for you?  Sure you could make a bad choice but “all things work together for the good of those that love and serve him”  Romans 8:28  So even a “Bad” choice can fall within the will of God.

God is more concerned with souls than he is with your safety

Ask his son! Jesus!  If God was concerned with comfort would he have allowed Jesus to suffer one bit?  But this is a war over souls! and truly if hundreds of innocents must die so that one soul could be redeemed then so be it! We balk at such a stark offensive idea but that is because we are so attached to this flesh. We see innocents suffer and die and we wonder how God could allow it.  But suffering and even death on this earth is not even comparable to getting a sunburn from a spiritual perspective.  Even a lifetime of suffering  when compared to an infinity of time spent with God is not even worth mentioning.

These things that I write, I write them from experience, I have walked with God and regardless of my choices I have not found safety for my flesh.

I have made choices that I thought were good and regretted them and made choices I thought were bad and thanked God for them… His will is perfect regardless.

I have suffered through times that I thought I would not survive, yet in the very middle of that pain my soul has been replenished.

Can you see that these things can give you freedom, and peace, and strength?

Tags: anger, Art, beleive, choice, choices, christian, Christianity, christians, destiny, God, God's will, jesus, Love, My God, pain, peace, perspective, Religion, spirit, sun, truth

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So how far have you actually thought about this?

// April 6th, 2009 // 2 Comments » // My Life, My Thoughts

I am just a guy that likes to ask questions… and sometimes my questions… admittedly go a little far… kinda like this week.

I was sitting and thinking about God’s big plan … kinda what his “end game” was.. and in thinking about his nature (at least what I know of it) he is not one of those “end game” type of guys! I mean think about it.. he has been around for…… FOREVER!!! do you think he was just sitting around one millennium and said… “hey! whats say we make people!” – well that’s exactly what he did! but really think a little further… so we never get the whole story about where the angels come from… or really any of the other spiritual things we hear about, and pretend to know anything about… you know “powers” and “principalities!” I just started thinking about that just kinda to follow it out… thinking of all the other stuff the bible says.. about us and where we are going… what we will be doing.. and how it relates to what we know.

things like… ok so we die… we go to heaven… and he creates a new heaven and a new earth… and we get to rule! with him! OVER WHAT!? that is pretty crazy.. because we already have dominion over the stuff that is already here!

Ok and it is quite interesting to me that satan being an angel had the free will to still rebel against God! so does that mean that we will maintain that free will in heaven! I would think so!

and a really interesting thing that has kept me busy for a few weeks..

we were created in God’s image… he said “let us make man in our image” now man had complete free will to do as he pleased… and the serpent convinced Eve to break the only rule that existed… before that point she still had free will but was simply unaware of a single thing…evil. So I looked at this with some pretty big scrutiny… why? why did God create a tree that would give us the knowledge of good and evil.. and then a tree of life so that we could live forever!?

This was not a test… it was not a mistake, it was not a game… this is the path!

very simply there is something that has been swirling around in my head… what part of us desires to be in control? why is the desire for power so strong within us? and the only thing that I can think of is because… we were made to be more! our desire to be the god in our own life is very strong… and that desire was so strong in satan’s heart that he turned…

the choice…. to know the difference between good and evil had to be made… the desire to be more like God, is how we were made…

I thought also about an aspect of GOD.. he had no problem becoming one of us and sacrificing himself for us… in otherwords he said “being GOD is not the issue, being able to set it aside, is what makes me GOD”

so back to my musings.. God wants us to rule with him… over something.. so he definitely has something in the pipes for the future right? of course he does..

what I see is that God set in motion a plan to infinitely expand his kingdom! not because he is bored.. but because of his nature he needs more to love!… to rule by his side we have to be able to set it all down and sacrifice what we are now… for others… Step one… learning to accept a gift! and leaving it at that. step two… act like Jesus, sacrifice yourself for others…

There are tons of theologians that can probably lay all of this out for you… but I don’t want to do that… I want you to wonder.. to seek. to think of what God has planned for you… who knows… we may be on the ground floor of the kingdom of GOD… or we may be stepping into a thriving spiritual kingdom with millions or thousands of worlds like our own, being created, and learning, and expanding and joining the kingdom…what would you sacrifice to be a part of that?

So… how far have you actually thought about this?

Jason Carroll

Jason the bald guy
jasonthebaldguy.com

Tags: Art, choice, Christianity, Faith, God, heaven, jesus, Love, Religion, sacrifice, sin, spirit

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