// February 2nd, 2010 // No Comments » // My Favorites
I was recently pointed to this gem of a video from http://www.activeword.org and I have to say this guy hits the nail on the head! Preach it brother!
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Tags: advertising, Christianity, sin// September 14th, 2009 // No Comments » // My Kitchen
I have thought about it long and hard and I truly believe that I would be doing all of my readers a disservice if I didn’t bestow upon all of you my culinary expertise! So I decided to start a new section called “The Kitchen” I have been handing out recipes and cooking since I was a kid… and I didn’t get to be a big guy just by sitting around playing video games! There is a lot of research involved in being a great cook…and believe me I have done some research, most of it is still around my waist! so if you need recipes or just want to read about the latest thing I am cooking up in the kitchen then keep an eye on The Kitchen… you never know what I will come up with!
Tags: Art, cooking, games, My Kitchen, recipes, sin// September 9th, 2009 // No Comments » // My Thoughts
If you struggle with sin,
if you are selfish,
if you are an alcoholic,
if you are addicted to drugs,
if you are addicted to pornography,
if you don’t spend enough time with your wife and kids,
If you are a jerk
If your dad was/is a jerk,
If you were/are abused,
If you were/are neglected,
if you constantly need the approval of others,
if you are habitually whiney,
if you nag your husband,
if your spouse is cheating,
if your child hates you,
if you hate anybody,
if you just did it again and you feel horrible about it,
if you don’t know why you do the things you do,
if you feel hopeless,
if you feel insane,
if you feel like jumping,
if you already jumped,
if you just left and are never going back,
if they broke your heart,
if they broke your spirit,
if you are broke,
if you are bent,
if you are angry,
if you are afraid,
if you don’t care anymore,
if you care but are afraid to show it,
if you are confused,
if all you want is to be touched,
if it all fell apart today,
if they did it again and you just can’t forgive,
if you don’t want to go on,
if you don’t feel anything anymore,
if none of this fits you, or if all of it fits you
Please know that God truly does love you more than anything else in this world. He isn’t concerned about how well you keep it together, or if you did the right thing.
he is not interested in how often you go to church, or if you said your prayers yesterday.
He just wants you to know he loves you… he really doesn’t need you to do anything…he has everything he needs, he just wants to love you… just focus on loving him back with all your heart. stop focusing on trying to please others or doing the right thing, or being right, or even keeping it all together… let it all fall apart! all those other things, they are just distractions, just love him back… and let me know how much it changes your life…
Seriously let me know… at jasonthebaldguy@gmail.com
Tags: Art, dad, doing the right thing, drugs, God, Kids, Love, porn, pornography, sin, spirit, spouse// August 31st, 2009 // 6 Comments » // My Confessions, My Life
I am thinking tonight about Abraham, walking up the hill to sacrifice his firstborn son, his only heir. These days God doesn’t just stop by for a visit and start up the conversation “I need you to make a sacrifice for me”, there are no stone altars, or rams caught in the thicket in the nick of time. There are lawyers and loafers, children and adults, men, and women, all in some way seeking their own interests. These days the issues are clouded and principals are less important. Being right, or winning, or out maneuvering your opponent is more important. These days if you do something wrong, just be sure you file the paperwork right and everything will be easy like butter. What you don’t say is more important than what you do say, and how you don’t say it is even more important! It is not doing the right thing but looking like you are doing the right thing while you are cashing out on someone else’s misfortune.
As I looked at the “waiver of parental rights” affidavit that old feeling came over me… the cold clammy fingers of fear and dread gripped over my heart squeezing it until my throat felt like I was swallowing a baseball. “It has come to this…” I breathed. There are really no words to express the feeling of being asked to sign a piece of paper that legally divorces you from your own child. The reality is that there are no words for these types of things at all… How horrible of a parent do you have to be for such a document to be necessary? Where is the rope that you grab to keep you from falling further down the nightmarish rabbit hole, where big is little and up is down? Perspective is all a matter of reality suddenly… the reality is that you have to make a choice… you have to think about “that which you would never willingly conceive of in your mind”… I am a man of reason, so how do you list your priorities and mark them off until you reach a reasonable decision? How… How do you even think about trying to choose?
The phone rings…he says it is what he wants, I will still be his dad… just not on paper.
I look at the paper… everyone says… fight! and win! God is for you! but the many years of seemingly good choices are dulled by a foggy perception…It is like looking back on a mine field where I stepped on every single mine and somehow survived. How can any choice be a good choice once you make the choice to walk through a minefield? I put my hand up to the past and turn away… “no” I cannot go there… others claim to remember it better than I do… and different… so different that I doubt myself… I wonder how my heart can be so sincere and yet so faulty… as faulty as my memory? The phone rings… he has questions… why I made choices… why I didn’t make others… I honestly don’t know… The questions are perfect and concise…. the type that don’t need answers… just delivery.
I sit… I sign. I sign the “waiver of parental rights” I go see a notary and look for the judgement on his face as he notarizes the “waiver of parental rights” I go to the post office and the postal worker drags the “waiver of parental rights” out of my resistant hand with a quizzical look. As the envelope leaves my hand my mind hears the deafening chorus of the abandoned as they scream at me of the fear of the unknown. I smile at the postal worker like a victim with a gun in his back as I swipe my card to pay the postage for the “waiver of parental rights”
The phone rings… people say… “you did the right thing” some of them are the same people that said “fight and win!” I think about all the times I have ignored the council of “Job’s Friends” thinking to have done the right thing, only to be found here apparently winning their approval… I value it little.. I value it less than little. I close my eyes to imagine a simpler time when life was catching toads and building forts.
(This post is a very real and honest post that describes the events surrounding the day that I actually did sign a “waiver of parental rights” for my first born son Collin James Carroll. My Ex-wife continues to actively read this blog and pass along my confessions that are meant for your encouragement as information that causes him to question my character and loyalty to him. My reasons for this post are not for the sake of drama, or sympathy, or counsel. I am simply hoping that through this post that you gain an insight and understanding possibly an empathy for those that are facing similar issues in life.)
Tags: Art, blog, choice, choices, dad, doing the right thing, dread, fear, friends, God, perception, perspective, sacrifice, sin, the past// August 8th, 2009 // 1 Comment » // My Life
Just a quick note… I did not realize that my RSS feed has been set up wrong… so for anyone that has attempted to subscribe I sincerely apologize. I believe everything is fixed and subscribing should work better now.
On to the news… as you can probably tell I have hit a streak of opinionation (if that is a word) so maybe the writers block is over ? woo hoo! I have successfully shed 30 lbs of dead weight and feeling pretty good lately (queue witty comments about “dead weight” here) Anyways I have a lot more energy and have actually considered going outside to do something other than getting into a vehicle 
I guess I owe you a post on why I am losing weight so keep an eye out for it…
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Tags: blog, Fun, Love, RSS, sin// August 8th, 2009 // 1 Comment » // My Thoughts
I have to say that I just about fell out of my chair laughing when I read the “Onion” article that stated “Study: 38 Percent Of People Not Actually Entitled To Their Opinion“ But It really got me thinking… I am a pretty opinionated person, so how many of my opinions are actually not mine? Well truthfully I rarely just pick up an opinion and begin using it for my own… most often the reason for this is that I am a bit egotistical i guess…I like figuring things out on my own. I seek out truth at all costs… the result, I may actually be entitled to my opinions… not that they are great or even very accurate but in most circumstances my opinions are mine and mine alone. However this is not so true for the average person I rub shoulders with… Call me an egotist if you like, but I rarely meet individuals that actually think for themselves these days… in general they seem to just jump on somebody’s band wagon and hang on for the ride. Most commonly I find people regurgitating the opinions of talk radio hosts, activists, TV personalities, and they often are intensely confrontational and outspoken and feel very strongly about “their” opinions. Like the staunch conservatives that are protesting the health care reform, they talk about “socialized medicine” and “single payer plans”. And yet have no problems avoiding a co-pay for immunizations by going to a county health clinic to get them for free… something wrong there… right? So where are you in this? do you just quote Rush Limbaugh or some other outspoken personality that has whipped you into a furor about a certain subject? You have to know that politics these days depend on the gullible public to believe in the hype surrounding an ideology and rarely provide accurate facts. This forces people to make decisions based on “feelings” rather than on “facts” so if everyone “feels good” about a war… then we can be at war for 20 years and no one will complain… but alas if some soldiers die, well then people start feeling bad about things… so they no longer want to be at war.
I am not trying to be insensitive here… I just think that a lot of people need to begin pulling their head out of the sand and realize that the majority of the US population is manipulated spiritually, religiously, psychologically, and physically through fear, and misinformation. It is an old trick that if you want to advance an agenda then you need to get people upset about something else. Once they are focused on your distraction then they rarely recognize that something else more sinister is going on… It is called “diversion” So the next time that someone gets you all worked up about something… you need to think about what might actually be going on in the background.
Just take a moment and be honest with yourself… are you really entitled to your opinion? or are you just borrowing someone else’s
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