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The Token

// January 4th, 2010 // 2 Comments » // My Thoughts

The Token

The Token

I once discovered a wonderful place that made me feel so good…

It seemed to fill my deepest needs better than anyone else could…

for only but a token I could feast my every thought

but woe is me the price was steep for my purity was the cost

I fouled my life with deadly vice and secretly played my games

but every time I left the place one token still remained

I vowed each time to never come back and swore it on my soul

but  as I swore I touched the token and stopped just short of whole

the token was my touchstone and always left the mark

my soul was tempered hard as rock and  hungered for a lark

I fought against myself and won oer and oer again

the battle was to go or not… but the token still remained

I fought for years to rid myself of loathing my own lust

but surrendering the token was a price beyond my trust

Then one day my soul awoke and  dared to be so rare

I threw the token out of sight before I was aware…

I  begged for full renewal of my heart my soul my mind

That day I woke a purer man than any other time.

So if you hold a token to your very special place…

be wary lest it bind you hand and foot  to lose the race

remove it from your heart and cast it far away from you

for the token is your  “come back call”

its name… “A Lame Excuse”

copyright  Jason Carroll

jasonthebaldguy.com

Tags: poetry, pornography, pornography addiction

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Stuff Christians Like – Struggling with New

// December 30th, 2009 // 1 Comment » // My Favorites

Jon Acuff over at SCL(Stuff Christians Like)  is pretty consistent with his satirical looks into some of the silly things we do as christians…  There are very few sites that make my “Highly Recommended” blog roll  but SCL is absolutely on the list… My mind is permanently scarred after reading the “Booty, God, Booty” article (just read it! ) and there is tons more great stuff to read that really makes you think about why you do things… which is a good thing for Christians… because sometimes we forget to think about why we are doing things :)

I want to give props to a recent article Struggling with New because it covers the renewing power of God …  and specifically talks about Jon’s victory over pornography… something that I struggled for years with. (story here) Be sure to check out SCL and take a look through the archives! there is tons of humor, good stories and thought provoking articles.  the site has been recently redesigned and I have to say it looks great, its easy to navigate and there are tons of great comments too!

So have you already been there???  give Jon some props here!   Let me know if you like  SCL as much as I do!

oh by the way Jon has just finished writing his book  ”Stuff Christians Like”   so be sure to pick up a copy… It is said to be 100% funnier than “The Shack” the proof is here!

100% funnier than The Shack

100% funnier than The Shack


Tags: porn, pornography, SCL, Stuff Christians Like, The Shack

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IF…

// September 9th, 2009 // No Comments » // My Thoughts

If you struggle with sin,
if you are selfish,
if you are an alcoholic,
if you are addicted to drugs,
if you are addicted to pornography,
if you don’t spend enough time with your wife and kids,
If you are a jerk
If your dad was/is a jerk,
If you were/are abused,
If you were/are neglected,
if you constantly need the approval of others,
if you are habitually whiney,
if you nag your husband,
if your spouse is cheating,
if your child hates you,
if you hate anybody,
if you just did it again and you feel horrible about it,
if you don’t know why you do the things you do,
if you feel hopeless,
if you feel insane,
if you feel like jumping,
if you already jumped,
if you just left and are never going back,
if they broke your heart,
if they broke your spirit,
if you are broke,
if you are bent,
if you are angry,
if you are afraid,
if you don’t care anymore,
if you care but are afraid to show it,
if you are confused,
if all you want is to be touched,
if it all fell apart today,
if they did it again and you just can’t forgive,
if you don’t want to go on,
if you don’t feel anything anymore,
if none of this fits you, or if all of it fits you

Please know that God truly does love you more than anything else in this world.  He isn’t concerned about how well you keep it together, or if you did the right thing.
he is not interested in how often you go to church, or if you said your prayers yesterday.

He just wants you to know he loves you… he really doesn’t need you to do anything…he has everything he needs,  he just wants to love you…  just focus on loving him back with all your heart.   stop focusing on trying to please others or doing the right thing, or being right, or even keeping it all together… let it all fall apart!    all those other things,  they are just distractions,  just love him back… and let me know how much it changes your life…

Seriously let me know…  at  jasonthebaldguy@gmail.com

Tags: Art, dad, doing the right thing, drugs, God, Kids, Love, porn, pornography, sin, spirit, spouse

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About Me

// April 19th, 2009 // No Comments » //

jasonthebaldguyI am a man that has truly lived my life, for better or worse I have stumbled, tramped, ran, slid, walked and flown through more incredible, horrible, amazing, scary, wonderful, sorrowful, awe inspiring moments than many might experience in two lifetimes. I am learning patience, wisdom, faith, perception, meekness, and love by living and depending on Jesus Christ whom I met soon after meeting the girl of my dreams in a nightclub. If you want to know more about me… you should check out my blog… http:\\jasonthebaldguy.com

Tags: addictions, blog, Faith, jesus, jesus christ, Love, nightclub, patience, perception, porn, pornography, wisdom

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a slow disassociation with the material…

// March 12th, 2009 // No Comments » // My Life, My Thoughts

Something that seems to be happening to me lately…

Is it possible that we can slowly learn to forget the material things in life to the point that we see things completely different?

The bible says in James 1:14-15  But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed. 15 Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.”

As I believe I have often said, selfishness is the basis of every conflict with God. (I tend to avoid the use of the word “sin” at this point because almost no one understands it at all anymore.. and by objectifying it have completely missed the point of what God is trying to teach us.)

anyways… Lust is essentially selfishness. If you look at the effects of lust you pretty much cover the gamut of “bad things people do”

so what happens if you truly become a “New Creature” and God begins to teach you selflessness? can you actually lose your “Lust”?

This first happened for me when I was set free from the addiction to pornography… there was a time that if I looked at a woman I was pretty much lusting after her…and thus committing adultery in my heart. This idea was unbearable to me.. and a constant nagging condemnation that was almost impossible to escape. Once I begged for release and received it (details covered here) one of the first things that I noticed was that my mind was free from the lust that once consumed it… but push to push this even further… by allowing yourself to be transformed by the renewing of your mind could you learn to see people as God sees them? … neither male or female… but souls… precious beautiful souls struggling to survive like a fish out of water?

I believe that I am actually experiencing “a slow disassociation with the material… ” I believe that God is transforming me through the renewing of my mind… to see… spiritually.

We do not trust ourselves for good reason… we are naturally selfish and that manifests as wickedness. BUT! if we quit focusing on our sin and learn to be selfless we may find that vices that have plagued us for years become no more than fuzzy memories of childish passions.

It is ironic to me that once you release your grip on the material world that you actually realize how flimsy it is compared to actual “reality”

The real task is learning to let go… It is about as hard as convincing yourself to commit to taking a deep breath underwater… yeah… its that hard… and very similar in most respects… it is the death of your carnal desire… and it probably should have been done a long time ago anyways…

Jason the bald guy
jasonthebaldguy.com

Tags: Art, blog, Christianity, God, Memories, My God, porn, pornography, selfishness, sin, spirit, warning

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About Religion and Relationship…

// February 21st, 2009 // 3 Comments » // My God

<this is an entry that I recently posted on a forum discussing the question : religion= happiness? I thought I would share it here also>

I have to say that religion in general is very frustrating and confusing!

all those rules! and exceptions!.. and they are always changing!

to give perspective in Antioch people that acted like Jesus “Christ” were called Christians…. Now… Christians do not act like Jesus “Christ” They most often act like the Pharisees and the Sadducees did. Ironically Jesus really gave those guys a hard time…

My experience… I was hopelessly addicted to pornography… It nearly destroyed my life in several ways… I was addicted to the point of seriously destructive behavior… I went 19 years struggling with this… I joined peer groups, accountability programs, bought software, confessed to others… everything that “Religion” teaches you to do. Finally I gave up trying to quit, I came to grips with the fact that I could not do it and being thoroughly convinced of that fact begged “GOD” to free me from the addiction. Today I have been addiction free for 3 years and have no compulsion whatsoever.. my marriage is improved, My mind is pure, and my heart is peacefull… because of unexplainable incidents such as this… the entire remainder of my existence is devoted to finding out more about the “Being” that can change things so drastically in an instant. I call Him “God”.. and I believe in Jesus because I identify with his nature that is described in history. Everything that he taught resonates within me and speaks of freedom, freedom from hate, dispair, anger, futility, sarcasm, cynicism, and all of the things that I want to be free from… and one by one they disappear as I learn more and more about this “Jesus”

Seek truth my friends… not to disprove it, but for the sake of knowing it… and you will find freedom.

Tags: anger, Art, christian, christians, cynicism, friends, God, jesus, peace, perspective, pharisees, porn, pornography, Religion, religion vs. relationship, sin, truth

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