Posts Tagged ‘Love’

I Can’t Not

// March 6th, 2010 // 4 Comments » // My Life

If your are my friend
and I call you so…
I can’t not care
and let things go

When you’re strong and high
and your spirit soars
I can’t not smile
and wish you more…

When the tables turn
and your heart is torn
I can’t not hurt
or cry or mourn

If you walk and talk
but the walk is a farce
I can’t not admonish
that you mind your heart

If my heart is stirred
and your life will be bettered
I can’t not utter
what the spirit has shared

If I love you I love you
and you cannot escape it
I can’t not be there for you
when you can no longer take it

you may not care now
and you may not care ever
but I can’t not speak
and abandon you never

If you know my heart true
and your honor I’ve earned
then measure me grace
and my counsel don’t spurn

I measure my words
so often with care
but I can’t not speak up
as if I’m not there

If your are my friend
and I call you so…
I can’t not care
and let things go

all rights reserved copyright 2010 jason carroll/ JTBG

http://jasonthebaldguy.com

Tags: Belief, friends, Love, poem, poetry

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Hi… I love you…

// March 5th, 2010 // 1 Comment » // My Life

I got this message today in my google voice – voice mail transcription. My opinion… the transcription of kalleighs voice mail is perfect in my opinion.

“Thanks and all. Well, I’ll talk to you. His I love you and I love you, huh. Hi, Hey Hi Mary, Good bye bye. Okay, bye bye alright. ”

my wife and baby girl

Kimberly and Kalleigh in "Hi I love you"

Tags: Family, Kids, Love

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Impossibility

// October 14th, 2009 // 2 Comments » // My Life

If you haven’t read the story of how I met my wife… you are missing out… it is a great story.  But greater than that are some of the details of how impossible it is that Kimberly and I ended up together.   At the time that I decided to make my list with the description of the perfect woman for me one of the top items on my list was this

“I want her to feel as lucky to be with me as I feel to be with her”   That may come across as cheesy and sappy to you but after all the relationships that I had tried there was always the part of the relationship that one of you felt like you were doing the other a favor just by staying together.  To me that was intolerable, It was just asking for trouble.  Amazingly that item being on my list, has been perfectly satisfied. Somehow after almost 8 years of being together both Kimberly and I feel like we are getting away with something!  As impossible as it may sound almost every day I look into her eyes and think “man did I hit the jackpot with this one!”   And I cannot count the times that Kimberly tells me that she is convinced that she “won the husband lottery”   Last week as we were discussing how great each other was ;)   Kimberly brought up the fact that it was pretty amazing that my list explicitly requested such a relationship and yet here we sat eight years later building each other up and fulfilling that desire that was in my heart long ago.  I know a lot of people…and while most of the couples I know are great together,  I can honestly say it is extremely extremely rare to find relationships these days that resemble the relationship that I have with Kimberly.  To my knowledge I haven’t seen one yet ….

Before you get all upset that “my marriage is better than yours”  Thats not the point of this… Kim and I have to work on our marriage just like anybody else… but to us the amazing thing is that God actually went to the trouble of answering my request for a specific type of relationship with my wife… the chances of that happening by coincidence… well that is pretty much an impossibility in my opinion.

Tags: Love, Marriage, relationship

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IF…

// September 9th, 2009 // No Comments » // My Thoughts

If you struggle with sin,
if you are selfish,
if you are an alcoholic,
if you are addicted to drugs,
if you are addicted to pornography,
if you don’t spend enough time with your wife and kids,
If you are a jerk
If your dad was/is a jerk,
If you were/are abused,
If you were/are neglected,
if you constantly need the approval of others,
if you are habitually whiney,
if you nag your husband,
if your spouse is cheating,
if your child hates you,
if you hate anybody,
if you just did it again and you feel horrible about it,
if you don’t know why you do the things you do,
if you feel hopeless,
if you feel insane,
if you feel like jumping,
if you already jumped,
if you just left and are never going back,
if they broke your heart,
if they broke your spirit,
if you are broke,
if you are bent,
if you are angry,
if you are afraid,
if you don’t care anymore,
if you care but are afraid to show it,
if you are confused,
if all you want is to be touched,
if it all fell apart today,
if they did it again and you just can’t forgive,
if you don’t want to go on,
if you don’t feel anything anymore,
if none of this fits you, or if all of it fits you

Please know that God truly does love you more than anything else in this world.  He isn’t concerned about how well you keep it together, or if you did the right thing.
he is not interested in how often you go to church, or if you said your prayers yesterday.

He just wants you to know he loves you… he really doesn’t need you to do anything…he has everything he needs,  he just wants to love you…  just focus on loving him back with all your heart.   stop focusing on trying to please others or doing the right thing, or being right, or even keeping it all together… let it all fall apart!    all those other things,  they are just distractions,  just love him back… and let me know how much it changes your life…

Seriously let me know…  at  jasonthebaldguy@gmail.com

Tags: Art, dad, doing the right thing, drugs, God, Kids, Love, porn, pornography, sin, spirit, spouse

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God is a Republican?

// September 3rd, 2009 // 4 Comments » // My Thoughts

Over the past 2000 some odd years Christians have always been an eccentric group but I have to admit, I think we got dumber once we got to America.  It seems the longer we stay in America the dumber we get!  God is not a Republican People!    This may offend you or make you think differently about me but I have some news for you.  God is Pro Choice.  He is the original Pro Choice supporter.  He decided to allow you to make ANY choice!  you can choose to kill, or heal, or love, or hate, or steal or deal, or make or break, you can fly or flunk or vote or hope but the choice is yours and yours alone! (sounds a little Dr Seuss eh?) My point is … that the freedom to do good or bad is unquestionably given to us by God, our countries leaders knew that. But somewhere somebody decided that it was our jobs as Christians to be the moral police for the USA… NOT OUR JOB!   Do you honestly think that God intended to create the world, give everyone the freedom to choose right or wrong and then let YOU decide what they could and couldn’t do so that your religious panties would not get bunched up?  Why do  you think that Jesus ALWAYS rebuked the pharasees?  They were religious zealots that sought to control the population with laws that were never intended by God.  Look I love all these great christian leaders that keep telling you that we need to prevent same sex marriage, abortion, etc.. etc… but the fact is that they are incredibly short sighted.  It has been  proven over and over you cannot legislate morality!  The world will do what they want, and we as Christians should be there to pick up the pieces for them.  Look at prohibition,  abortion, homosexuality, same sex marriage,   every time those issues are subjected to intense scrutiny and outrage by well meaning “christian” activists, it only serves to alienate that group of people from Christians even further.   I would bet $1000 dollars that you take a few fishermen and start protesting their fishing as evil and ungodly and those previously harmless fishermen will become pitchfork bearing villagers bent on eradicating every christian in sight.

So before you get up on your conservative high horse and begin railing on me for being a liberal, or a democrat, or a heretic or whatever, hear me out.

I think that everyone should have the right to do what they like… just like God Created us. This works fine… the world takes care of these things naturally… they don’t want to bother with religion. i.e.  you kill someone you will probably end up dead or in jail-pretty much happens all over the world. The thing is you get religion involved with making laws… and you end up with “King James” you know… the guy that created a Church State and killed people for not attending the State Churches?  This is the same Guy we ran away from to America and decided that “Congress shall make no law respecting an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise thereof”  It wasn’t the state that was the problem in the first place… it was religion all along.

Religious zealots killed Jesus
Religious zealots started the bloody crusades
Religious zealots persecuted protestants
Religious zealots have alienated homosexuals
Religious zealots are unreasonable
Religious zealots are unmerciful
Religious zealots are intolerant of anything except what they believe
Religious zealots bomb abortion clinics

So when you get all excited and worked up and angry about how all of these groups are attacking your morals and fundamental beleifs remember… we fired the first shots in this war… and God never authorized the war.

Tags: activists, Art, choice, christian, christians, conservative, Dr Seuss, exercise, Fun, God, jesus, Love, pharasees, Religion, the past

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Blog News, an RSS oops and a comment about comments

// August 8th, 2009 // 1 Comment » // My Life

Just a quick note… I did not realize that my RSS feed has been set up wrong… so for anyone that has attempted to subscribe I sincerely apologize. I believe everything is fixed and subscribing should work better now.

On to the news… as you can probably tell I have hit a streak of opinionation (if that is a word) so maybe the writers block is over ? woo hoo! I have successfully shed 30 lbs of dead weight and feeling pretty good lately (queue witty comments about “dead weight” here) Anyways I have a lot more energy and have actually considered going outside to do something other than getting into a vehicle :) I guess I owe you a post on why I am losing weight so keep an eye out for it…

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Tags: blog, Fun, Love, RSS, sin

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