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From The Archives… Failure!

// January 21st, 2010 // No Comments » // My Life

Failure…

this ties in with my previous post on Gods will, people seeking Gods will experience failure and look back wondering “maybe I heard God wrong”

The problem is that they are focusing on the wrong thing. Failure is a bad word for it… but its what we use… so.. so be it
when we ask a baby to learn to walk we expect for that baby to fail over and over… but we insist on picking them up and pushing them to move forward… we coax and cajole and rejoice with each small “almost success” Don’t  you think that God looks at us that way?
I am coining a new word… for this blog entry… spiriphorically, it means looking at a spiritual concept metaphorically.. not quite a parable but kinda!.
so lets look at this “baby walking” concept spiriphorically.    Read More—>
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Selfishness

// May 30th, 2009 // No Comments » // My Thoughts

We all struggle with our flaws… addictions… compulsions.  Somehow religion has evolved to promote a sort of self loathing mentality. We have somehow been convinced by modern religion that if we focus on our imperfections then we can somehow root them out.  The sad truth is that the pinnacle of Christianity for some Christians is the very day that they are saved, on that very day they truly believe that salvation is a free gift. After that they begin trying to earn it. Somehow our culture of modern religion begins to convince them to start the life long task of trying to rip their flesh off their soul.  I truly believe that this is not what God intended for us. Jesus constantly corrected the religious leaders of the day because they focused on every little legalistic point and attempted to instruct others to do the same.

Our problem  is selfishness, pure unfettered unchecked selfishness. Addictions… selfishness. The sooner we realize that selfishness is the problem the better! from that point all we need to do is to focus on “loving the Lord your GOD with all your heart and love your neighbor as yourself”   I know it sounds elementary and simple but that is the single solitary cure for all of the dissatisfied, angry, addicted, perverted, horrible, sad, etc. etc… people in the world.

Tags: addictions, Art, christian, Christianity, christians, depression, failure, God, jesus, Love, modern religion, Religion, righeousness vs. self righteousness, self loathing, selfishness, sin, truth

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Dependency

// April 25th, 2009 // 1 Comment » // My Music

mikeschairWhat truly defines us? is it what we do? or who we know? do our successes, mistakes, or failures define us? I know I have often allowed these things to convince me of who I am. These days, just the very expectations and judgments of others can quickly break us down and cause us to lose hope. Choices… when the labyrinth of choices have conspired against you so that there is no “good” choice. only the “least bad” choice. Where do we turn when all of our good intentions fail us and we end up as wrong as humanly possible. What do we depend on? Who do we depend on?

For me when it seems that everything is stripped away and my soul is bared, I always end up running back to God to hand him my problems.

Faced with the “least bad” of several bad choices this week, I have struggled again with allowing my situation to define me, and becoming hopeless. As I drove to work one day this week. a song came on the radio…called Can’t Take Away that reminded me of what defined me. who I was, and who I depend on…

and nothing can take that away from me…

Tags: choice, choices, christian music, failure, God, judgment, music, My Music, running, sin

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The Idiot Lives!!!!

// March 15th, 2009 // 5 Comments » // My Confessions

Only several hours after writing about my experience of learning to step out of the material and see things spiritually… I experience the realization that my carnal self is so deeply ingrained that those trips to “sanity” are often followed by a much less enjoyable trip to less desirable places! There are days that I fully realize and can almost hear “all creation groaning for the adoption” I myself groan daily at my inability to maintain a selfless and spiritual existence… call it spiritual ADD or ADHD or whatever but It is intensely difficult to focus! I begin to see each of my actions and their contribution or lack thereof to my daily walk.

I would venture to guess that someone somewhere possibly reading this blog might just come to the conclusion that I am a strong christian man, that I am sure of myself, that I blog these things so that others could learn to be like me.

For the record… I am an Idiot.

I regularly and consistently make choices that I regret, and often do not learn from my mistakes until many times later.

I am impulsive and passionate and gritty- I laugh at things I shouldn’t , I say things that i regret later. I look at things that trap me, I listen to things that embitter me, I do things that shame me.

I often find freedom from a seemingly baseless conviction only to find bondage in its absence.

All of these things plague me daily… and yet my love for my God is unchanging… and my love for others is growing.

The idiot lives… but he is learning… slowly..

Jason the bald guy
jasonthebaldguy.com

Tags: blog, choice, choices, christian, Christianity, conviction, failure, God, Love, My God, selfishness, shame, spirit

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The Icy Embrace of Chaos – A rant on the current financial crisis

// January 16th, 2009 // No Comments » // My Life, My Thoughts

I don’t know how many of you are familiar with the theories of Entropy, Order, and Chaos so indulge me while I enlighten you.

First of all some definitions

System: a collection of objects that are related and/or interact with each other based on a specific set of rules (Examples: home heating/cooling system, plumbing, the solar system etc. etc…)

Order: the organized symmetry that is observed when objects interact with each other in a balanced manner

Chaos: the lack of balance and symmetry that is observed when objects interact with each other in a random and unpredictable way.

Entropy: The tendency of ordered systems to decay into Chaos

Ok, now that the definitions are out of the way, (they are simplified for all of our sakes)

My head has been really exploding listening to all of the recent opinions about the recession (dare I say depression?) that is beginning to sweep across the nation and even the world! The one thing that I find most unbelievable is that no one is really accepting responsibility for their actions! Everyone seems to be pointing at someone else wanting to shift the blame. At this point we get to see what is really going on in our country.

  • An average US citizen, wants to buy a house
  • An Appraiser wants to increase the value of a house to improve his business
  • A Realtor wants to sell a house and make a big commission
  • A local Bank wants to close on a loan and make a fat load of interest.
  • An investment bank wants to buy high risk mortgages and repackage them as lower risk mortgage backed securities, selling them at a profit
  • A hedge fund is set up to protect the high risk mortgage backed securities in-case a few of them fail.

soooo

  • The average US citizen lies about their income so they can afford a nicer house.. overextending themselves.
  • The Realtor works out a deal with the appraiser and the seller to reduce the down payment by increasing the amount of the loan to the maximum appraisal value and pretending the seller is paying the down payment.
  • The Appraiser gladly raises the value of the house so that the Realtor can make a better commission.. guaranteeing more work and possible kickbacks.
  • The Local Bank looks the other way and closes on an Adjustable Rate Mortgage (ARM) that is doomed for failure
  • The Investment Bank buys up thousands of ARM loans, slices and dices them to reduce risk and resells them as mortgage backed securities
  • The hedge fund artificially inflates the demand for oil by making enormous futures purchases – driving the price of oil ridiculously high assuring plenty of money to protect the mortgage backed securities .

the result is

  • The average US Citizen cannot afford Gas for their SUV because of high gas prices and bad spending habits.
  • The ARM loan adjusts to the current finance rate increasing monthly payments by hundreds of dollars and the average US Citizen cannot afford their home.
  • Thousands of ARM loans go into default
  • The hedge fund fails because they only bet that 20% of the loans would go into default and they already paid the investors their dividends
  • the investment bank fails because huge chunks of their mortgage backed securities are failing and investors are dumping them at bargain basement prices
  • the local bank fails because the average US citizen pull their money out because they have no idea what is going on with the banks!
  • the housing bubble pops, Realtor’s and appraisers run out of work.
  • Construction dwindles down and contractors run out of work.
  • Unemployment skyrockets
  • General consumer confidence begins to fail
  • Retail begins to fail
  • Unemployment skyrockets
  • The Stockmarket plummets
  • Consumer confidence fails
  • The oil bubble pops
  • Gas prices fall
  • The world economy stumbles.

Ok ok my rant is almost done…

So much of this is caused by greed, It is all about turning a quick buck! and when all the finger pointing is done thousands of families are without homes that they probably could have afforded if they would have done things right.- If the people that should have been there to help them buy a house, would have been honest with them- and told them to buy less and be satisfied. Ultimately the only ones that pay for the entire scam is the homeowners, the folks who bought gas at near 5 bucks a gallon and the taxpayer that foots the bill for a multibillion dollar bailout of the companies that bought the oil and drove the prices up, and sold the mortgage backed securities at a profit.

The cracks are beginning to show in the idealism of capitolism and they are not very pretty. what shows is greed, dishonesty, and irresponsibility. Every little choice to be dishonest for the sake of personal gain added to the enourmous cost that we will pay in the coming years. Entropy is the decay of order into chaos and we have welcomed it with open arms.

So buckle up and prepare to take responsibility for your actions, responsibility can only be avoided for so long before it demands its dues.

Hopefully America will wake up to realize that truth and honesty and responsibility are worth more than a dollar bill. Hopefully… before we must endure the icy embrace of chaos.

Tags: Art, capitolism, choice, depression, economy, failure, financial problems, Fun, greed, one thing, random, ranting, recession, responsibility, rock, sin, truth, unemployment

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Failure…

// October 11th, 2008 // 1 Comment » // My God, My Thoughts

this ties in with my previous post on Gods will, people seeking Gods will experience failure and look back wondering “maybe I heard God wrong”

The problem is that they are focusing on the wrong thing. Failure is a bad word for it… but its what we use… so.. so be it
when we ask a baby to learn to walk we expect for that baby to fail over and over… but we insist on picking them up and pushing them to move forward… we coax and cajole and rejoice with each small “almost success” Don’t  you think that God looks at us that way?
I am coining a new word… for this blog entry… spiriphorically, it means looking at a spiritual concept metaphorically.. not quite a parable but kinda!.
so lets look at this “baby walking” concept spiriphorically.
God: (coaxing me to take a step)
“come on… I know you can do it!!
God: (looking at jesus)
“just let go a little… “
Jesus: (holding me up under my arms)
“well he is just standing up! thats pretty good”
God: (Grinning at Jesus)
“well then let go a little…just a little and see what he does”
Jesus: (Staying close to catch me)
“see all on his own”
God:
“come on buddy .. come to daddy”
Jesus:
” hey! he took a step.. cool!”
God: (getting excited)
“Yeah!  keep it up…. (pause)… and he’s down!”
Jesus: (picking me up)
“man he is getting alot better!  he took that step with alot more confidence this time!”
Jesus:
“you think we should try again?”
God:
“Nah,  we have been at it for a while… lets see what he does on his own, let him gain some confidence”
Jesus: (jumping up)
“Hey look he is up on his own!… one… two.. three steps!”
Both together: (dramatically)
“and hes down!”
Both together: (excited chatter)
” man did you see that.. three steps… THREE STEPS all on his own!”  ”this is awesome” (grinning) “this is so much fun!”  ” I love it when they start taking chances!”
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That is how God sees what we call “failure”
Tags: Apple, Art, blog, dad, failure, Fun, God, jesus, Love, seeking God, sin, spirit

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