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I Can’t Not

// March 6th, 2010 // 4 Comments » // My Life

If your are my friend
and I call you so…
I can’t not care
and let things go

When you’re strong and high
and your spirit soars
I can’t not smile
and wish you more…

When the tables turn
and your heart is torn
I can’t not hurt
or cry or mourn

If you walk and talk
but the walk is a farce
I can’t not admonish
that you mind your heart

If my heart is stirred
and your life will be bettered
I can’t not utter
what the spirit has shared

If I love you I love you
and you cannot escape it
I can’t not be there for you
when you can no longer take it

you may not care now
and you may not care ever
but I can’t not speak
and abandon you never

If you know my heart true
and your honor I’ve earned
then measure me grace
and my counsel don’t spurn

I measure my words
so often with care
but I can’t not speak up
as if I’m not there

If your are my friend
and I call you so…
I can’t not care
and let things go

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http://jasonthebaldguy.com

Tags: Belief, friends, Love, poem, poetry

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Hi… I love you…

// March 5th, 2010 // 1 Comment » // My Life

I got this message today in my google voice – voice mail transcription. My opinion… the transcription of kalleighs voice mail is perfect in my opinion.

“Thanks and all. Well, I’ll talk to you. His I love you and I love you, huh. Hi, Hey Hi Mary, Good bye bye. Okay, bye bye alright. ”

my wife and baby girl

Kimberly and Kalleigh in "Hi I love you"

Tags: Family, Kids, Love

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Welcome To The Family

// March 3rd, 2010 // 5 Comments » // My Life

picture of my kids

Kaydence, Kalleigh, Collin and Aidan

I talk about a lot of different topics here,  I realized recently when reading my posts that I have neglected to share something with you that is one of the most important parts of my life!  My Family!

To me Family is part of my heartbeat, I am a man that loves his wife and kids passionately!  So it is only fit that I share them with you…

My family

Kalleigh, Kimberly, Kaydence, Jason, Aidan

Kimberly:  My wife and soul mate!  honestly I have no idea what I would do without her… she keeps me sane, inspired, driven and organized.

Aidan: This little guy is one of a kind… Aidan is autistic and takes 200% of my attention… and I have ADD so it is a lot of work! If there is toilet paper spread around the house in streamers…. if there is a weird smell in the house… or if it sounds like someone threw a toddler bed down the stairs… the familiar refrain… “AIDAN!!!”  is always not far behind!

Collin:  Collin is my first born… we have gone through a lot together… He has weathered my divorce from my first wife, and an adoption by his step-dad.  Needless to say he has had more than his share of drama in his life.  Our relationship is definitely one that requires constant effort and patience on both of our parts… I love him more than anything and one day we will figure out what to do with each other.

Kaydence: Kaydence is my first girl… I have to say it is really strange trying to figure out how to raise little girls… they get their feelings hurt by EVERYTHING!! I am beginning to become an expert at asking nicely for them to be good girls… Kaydence is as sweet as they come and just as hard headed (she gets it from her mom) She is also a brilliant artist with lots of creativity… and a good eye for detail…

Kalleigh: Kalliegh is a little fireball… she has no fear… and is the youngest of our clan… she knows how to hold her own and pretty much keeps her siblings in line with a well placed screech of disagreement when somebody crosses her.   She loves to watch “Signing Times” and is learning new signs every day there is nothing cuter than watching her sing along with the video and do her signs.

Tags: Family, Kids

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God Doesn’t Make Junk

// February 27th, 2010 // 4 Comments » // My Life

I discovered this video on a nice blog I have been following called “My Experience as Nick the Geek” This is one of those videos I wish I would have watched when I was younger… it might have saved me a lot of trouble! :)

Tags: Christianity, Faith, God's will, video

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Finding The Strength To Be Radical

// February 19th, 2010 // 3 Comments » // My Life, My Thoughts

Most of the time I feel like an average guy… in fact almost all the time I feel like for some reason or other I actually fall below average… I am petty, egotistical, boisterous, insensitive, and childish. But deep in my heart there is a strong desire to be remarkable… to be above average…to live without the handicaps that I so often place upon myself.  Unfortunately what comes out of me often feels like a lumbering Ox trying to escape a yoke that just does not- seem- to fit!  I look at life in a simplistic manner… it is an adventure…that we should embrace and own in every way… the good and the bad.  But somehow jobs, and rules and societies “norms”, keeping up with the joneses,  comes and steals away the adventure of life.  And we often get convinced that all we really need is a bigger TV, a new vehicle, a better house.  What we don’t realize is that all of those things can form a prison that forces us to take the good paying, stressful jobs that end up sucking the life out of  us…. and we end up as mindless drones cranking out an existence, wondering whatever happened to the spark of life… when do we get to relax?  or better yet how do we relax?  We are so close to multi-tasking ourselves out of existence that we can’t even realize that almost every part of our lives are crumbling around us…It has taken me the better part of 34 years to figure out that all of the things that I thought were important actually don’t matter at all.  Many people talk about being radical but I don’t witness it very often in real life,  I often see people “acting” radical but they only go far enough to make a splash.  I decided a while back that I want out of this rat race lifestyle driven by a never ending hunger for more money and more stuff… I started analyzing my buying habits and my motives for spending money. I decided to get out of debt and I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.  But more than that I am finding the strength to be radical in my commitment to become a more focused child of God. I am seeing the benefits of turning my back on materialism and thoughtless living. The further I walk away from the ideals of materialism the more power and authority I gain over my life to actually live in freedom.

So what about you?  have your found the strength to be radical in your life? Have you sacrificed any earthly comforts or amenities to reap spiritual or lifestyle benefits?

Tags: materialism, sacrifice

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The Safe Word

// February 18th, 2010 // 1 Comment » // My Life

Kim and I are a bit eccentric in the relationship department and we often find ingenious ways to avoid the common pitfalls in relationships.  One common problem in most relationships is getting all bent out of shape and yelling at each other… (don’t you dare act like it has never happened!)  Recently when we realized that we were becoming a little harsh with each other we devised a foolproof plan to stop the argument.  We decided to use a “safe word” to let each other know when we were feeling upset and needed relief.  I suggested Supercalafragalisticexpialidotious  for several reasons

  1. I have yet to use it in everyday conversation
  2. it is extraordinarily long and hard to say… thus hard to ignore or miss.
  3. I was at a loss to figure out a proper safe word.

There is one unforseen side effect of using Supercalafragalisticexpialidotious as a safe word…. it sabotages arguments!  no matter how mad you are or frustrated or not listening…. when someone blurts out Supercalafragalisticexpialidotious  it is impossible to keep a straight face… much less fall out laughing on the floor… try it! let me know how long your arguments last!

Tags: Family, Fighting

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