Diary of a Dead Beat Dad- Baby Mamma Drama

Son,

ahh tonight… at 11:00 your mom calls! she is mad because my sister had the gall to call her a freak and lowlife on face book!

she lays into me like a rabid wolf before I even know who is calling me! tsk… tsk… It does get old… the funny thing is that she acted like we talked yesterday. and we haven’t… for months!

she wanted to know “what I told my sister to make her feel like that?” my answer “nothing! all she had to do was experience you for herself!”

apparently she is connecting with everyone again ( I am guessing she means from back home in , before the divorce?) and everyone is so welcoming… and her prayer life is doing better… and this just throws a wrench in the works somehow?

I attempted to mention through the high drama ranting that it was odd that she would call me at 11:00 at night over somebody calling her a mean name when I could not even get a return call from you just to say hi. her answer was.. “I can pull the phone records and I promise you haven’t called in months!”

but there is no need to pull them… I called… you know I did.. you saw every one of them and didn’t answer…just like she told you… I don’t blame you at all buddy… she is a bad one to cross… I know! I am still living the nightmare… she is still so angry and vindictive.

finally she did admit that she knew I called… but not enough… its never enough…no matter how well you do… it’s not enough is it? you always are just not trying hard enough!

“if you really loved _______ then you would try harder.. ” yep… I know…she says it all the time. Just tough it out buddy… true unconditional love is really out there… and it is just waiting for you! You just keep your head down, talk to Jesus all the time, and he will get you through it.

Son, look dude, we are stuck in this together… there is nothing either of us can do to get out of this… only a few more years of patience and you and I will be able to talk about this with some clarity… I know your heart buddy boy and it is a good one! I know because I am your daddy and you act like me! the thing is that you and I don’t respond well to yelling and threatening and all the crazy drama! your mom and her family… well they thrive on it… its second nature so you gotta just live with it. Just keep your chin up… know that your daddy loves you. I need you to know that… I really really love you son.

Your mom wants to take my parental rights… and she can probably get away with it.. she is a driven and vindictive woman…

I do have to smile… she shouted at me “when I bring you to court, your sister will be on the subpoena ” I am guessing that somehow I become a less responsible father because my sister got angry and called her a mean name. The judge will undoubtedly be swayed in her favor! Mean names are just so uncalled for!

Son, I have no idea what will happen this year… I am sure eventually we will end up in court… and it’s very possible that I could lose… I honestly don’t have that much faith in the legal system these days… It’s all about the math I guess.

Regardless of whatever happens… I am still here…I am still your daddy…. and I will always love you…

Daddy.