The Idiot Lives!!!!

Only several hours after writing about my experience of learning to step out of the material and see things spiritually… I experience the realization that my carnal self is so deeply ingrained that those trips to “sanity” are often followed by a much less enjoyable trip to less desirable places! There are days that I fully realize and can almost hear “all creation groaning for the adoption” I myself groan daily at my inability to maintain a selfless and spiritual existence… call it spiritual ADD or ADHD or whatever but It is intensely difficult to focus! I begin to see each of my actions and their contribution or lack thereof to my daily walk.

I would venture to guess that someone somewhere possibly reading this blog might just come to the conclusion that I am a strong christian man, that I am sure of myself, that I blog these things so that others could learn to be like me.

For the record… I am an Idiot.

I regularly and consistently make choices that I regret, and often do not learn from my mistakes until many times later.

I am impulsive and passionate and gritty- I laugh at things I shouldn’t , I say things that i regret later. I look at things that trap me, I listen to things that embitter me, I do things that shame me.

I often find freedom from a seemingly baseless conviction only to find bondage in its absence.

All of these things plague me daily… and yet my love for my God is unchanging… and my love for others is growing.

The idiot lives… but he is learning… slowly..

Jason the bald guy
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