Obsession… Gratification… Peace…

I am a pretty focused guy… I tend to home in on something of interest and it completely dominates my world until something else snaps me out of it… I tend to think of it as a good character trait.. it tends to make me good at solving problems and in my line of work, solving problems is what keeps you employed.

As I was thinking about this character trait I noticed it in other areas of my life where it is not so desirable! I tend to go through phases where my interest in a subject is very intense and I want to learn everything about it… and then once I do.. I completely lose interest.

There seems to be a cycle of Obsession.. Gratification…and discontent… on to the next Obsession.

I swap out stuff like … music gear, computer gear, blogging! writing music, etc. Ultimately even though I know in my heart none of those “things” are of any value REALLY… somehow I convince myself that I should chase them anyways! So on goes the cycle…

I completely disappoint myself over and over again at the fact that though my heart knows the value of seeking God… I would much rather look at the new “toy” that I want.

Ultimately though I always cast those “things” away to go running back to Jesus… realizing that only he is worthy of my … obsession… gratification..and that alone gives me peace..